.condolences to a siddiqy.

who lost her mother this evening.
i met her personally just once during raya gathering 2010.
a humble and wise politician.
which reflected in his son's character.
whom i personally respect whenever he speaks.
in program, usrah or random conversations.
may Her soul is under His Blessing.
ameen.

p/s : dear akhi,be as strong as you can be.

.the dark side.

prevailed most and illuminates the light of my heart.
at random mussolla.
i failed to recall verses of Him in solah.
even as simple as my favourite Al-Furqan's.
mostly when i was the leader.

none of hadiths are memorized for the past few months.
the nafs had too much fun.
no books of ulama' are in my grasp lately.
just fortune, the sun,malay mail and financial daily.

the heart is confused.
no usrah i can visit anymore.
only randon ta'lims and sermons.
"good" friends are also not around anymore.

every day is a struggle.
to be what a muslim should be.
the dark side shouldn't have controlled.
ya qalbi.