.24/7.

when it comes to the part where i become so obsess with my dreams.
people would perceived it as an annoying circumstances.
they would say you are taking it way too hard.
and you would easily degrade yourself with that.
that would be their 'typical' response.
sometimes it makes sense but sometimes it doesn't.
~pppfffttt

i was sure enough auditor is my dream profession.
the exposure,ability to deal with high ranked people in big organization thrilled me.
i made it so far during my internship.
but there are few things that i must consider.
as i have to sacrifice a lot if i want to be good at this.
it requires more than determination.
it can kills your happiness.

so far, the managers that I've met are fast track performers.
yet to reach 30 and earning 5 digit per month.
thats cool.but.
they arent having a great life.
why i said that?because there are few seniors shared their experience with me.
working during public holidays and weekend is their routine.
they look so pathetic in personality.
it seems that they devoted themselves to their career more than anything else.
it could've been worst than that.
loser~~

something that i dont want to miss is the beauty of life.
and my definition of beauty in life is subjective.
and part of it is having a great career prospect.
being an auditor?.i'm not sure about that.
let me do some research first.;-)

.when i let my thoughts flow back and forth.i smile.

Where have you been,
My long lost friend?
It's good to see you again.
Come and sit for a while
I've missed your smile
Today the past is goodbye.
Time can't erase
A lover's embrace.
Can't you hear it calling?
A new day dawning
You were longing to find.

Love's taken you far
Away from my heart,
And I've been here all alone.
Have your eyes failed to find
What took you from mine,
A vision that's faded through time?
But you sailed away,
A fine summer's day,
Cause you heard it calling,
A new day dawning,
You were longing to find.

There is a way to make you stay.
Darlin don't turn away
Don't doubt your heart
and keep us apart
I'm right where you are
Stay

There is a way to make you stay.
Darlin don't turn away.
Don't doubt your heart
and keep us apart
I'm right where you are
Stay.

.dear friends.:)

Life is full of lots of up and downs,
And the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground,

And there is nothing more painful than to let you're feelings take you down,

It's so hard to know the way you feel inside,

When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide,
But you might feel better if you let me walk with you

by your side,

And when you need a shoulder to cry on,

When you need a friend to rely on,

When the whole world is gone,

You won't be alone,

cause I'll be there,

I'll be your shoulder to cry on,I'll be there,

I'll be a friend to rely on,When the whole world is gone,you won't be alone,

cause I'll be there.

All of the times when everything is wrong

And you're feeling like

There's no use going on

You can't give it up

I hope you work it out and carry on

Side by side,

With you till the end

I'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand

no matter what is said or done

our love will always continue on

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on

everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone

you won't be alone cause I'll be there

I'll be your shoulder to cry on

I'll be there

I'll be the one you rely on

when the whole world's gone

you won't be alone

cause I'll be there!

p/s : tommy page - a shoulder to cry on.

.unsual circumstances.

someone that ignored me for some reasons.
waived and smiled.
and someone whom close with me.
was 20 metres away.

p/s : guilty.

.satisfaction.

is when i turn my dreams into reality.
is when being close with Him and He really can forgives me for mistakes that i've done.
is when i'm am able to fully appreciate people around me by kindness,through thoughts,words & actions.

keywords :
1.fisabillillah.
2.habluminnas and habluminaAllah.
3.al-falah.

.i have no issues.

as a friend and called and said.
i know something and something about you.
through here and there.
i'm not stalking you or what.
just want to know more about you.

my reply : you should have a better way to know more about me.because you are a friend,arent you?

p/s : i got no issues with it,just feel it wasnt appropriate.;-)

.the bullet train.

as others on their cars.cabs.bicycles.and some yet to make their move.
we already inside the train.
a bullet train.

it moves so fast.
with definite stops.but often with different people & surrounding at each ends.
its dangerous but convenient in a way.
way that only you and i can describe.

problem with trains.
u cant make a u-turn each time u make a mistake.
there'll be no second chance.not so easy.esp if you're on a bullet train.

it might look beautiful at the beginning.
may turn ugly at the end.or the beautiful just remain?
leave the answer box unopened.
we don't want to know the answer any soon.

my past is not so pleasing to know.
words failed to be proven.
promises made and broken up.
and hearts lose their trust too often.

you know me and you believe everything.
and i dont want to let you go away.
not so easy.
as theres much things i havent said and done.
even it might take the whole life to do it.;-)

p/s to others :
thank you for being here.
reading and trying hard to understand it.
you might pretend that you know everything.
but you arent capable of doing it.
;-)

.they lost their souls to the night.

when the dancers made their moves.
they convinced the world they are livin in their own world.
which seems better at some moments.
but not most of the time.

when the music stopped.
the moves mean nothing.
rather being an illiteral expression.
they were trying hard to get a little more attention.

in their eyes.
i saw despair.loneliness.meaningless sights.
unable to express through the moves and songs.
they just like the paperdolls who lost their souls to the night.

;-)