.life goes on #2.

the funny part.

of this recovering process. 

it is not easy. 

i need the strength from Him. 

or i'll die in jahil or as munafiqun. 

die, die and die 

.life goes on #1.

when people ask me how am i doing, i would tell them i am good.

even when i am not.

when people question why i am not working in big firms or companies, i would tell them i will do but later.

even when actually i have rejected a job offer overseas. 

when people trigger the question why i am no longer with this specific person, i would tell them i chose not to.

even when actually i believe Allah swt wants to close my heart for "reconciliation" session.

when people ask me questions, i would them things that they want to hear. 

but life is nafsi nafsi (but in the exception of certain area covered by hablu minnannas), so let it be. 

2014 onwards.

insyaAllah. 

i will only do things, that is going to help me to be a better muslim. 

have been astrayed for few years (since i got into serious relationship), this year shall be better biiznillah. as ibn muslim's suggests, there is a fardh that compulsory to us. only if you know.

.2014, is a year for reconcilliation. of qalbi. 

insyaAllah.