.travelog #7.

life is beautiful.
heartbroken.
love lost and found.
mixture of many.
choices are there.
decisions are indecisive.

but He is still there.
always.
biiznillah.

.travelog #6.

i don't think i deserved this.
but i appreciate it very much.
grateful.
to Him.

.travelog #5.

i was told.
by my alter ego.
that things should be done perfectly.
but at times, that should change.

you can't expect everybody to be like you.
act like you, think like you or do things the way you do.
a simple rule to understand?
maybe for some, not for many.

sigh.

.travelog #4.

maybe you and i.
know things.
not secret, just things.

sacred.
are things that we know but we can't explain it by using our own words.

desires.
could be things that were created out of nothing.
triggered by true nature of man, and most of the time meaningless.

love.
is what the fools need.
so they think.
it is so illusional, shadowed by their own lusts.
purposeless.
because fools are fools.
sorry, you were saying?

nothing works around here.
nothing.

life is beautiful.
the self discovery towards Him is more exciting.
courage. perseverance.
lonely but fulfilling.
but please.
keep your eyes peeled.
you said too much.
sometimes, or most of the time?

let the guilt consumes.
of sins, regrets and mistakes.
but regardless.
i hope i am a better man today.
biiznillah.

and no.
incase if you are wondering.
no, i haven't slept with anyone.
nothing close to that.
sigh.

.travelog #3.

i can't sleep.
keep thinking what will i do next.
am i doing the right thing?.
why should i do this?.
where am i going?.
with whom i am going there with?.

and i am questioning myself.
is He watching over me?.

everywhere, everytime. goodnight.

.travelog #2.

common people are inclined to be surrounded with their own kind.
and let the definition of common people left unexplained.

what do you know?.
this world is sick.

even after the revelation was made years ago.

crazy world!

p/s : not google-ed picture!

.travelog #1.

if you ask me what's the intention of living in this world?.
trust me, i can give you the perfect answer as a muslim.

but if you ask me further, whether my life is based on that answer.

i might not have the answer.
i am in doubt myself.
or worst.
i am afraid to know the answer.

thats when i realized that.
i have been slacking.
i have been trying hard to be a bad soul.
i have put myself where life seems to be easy and meaningless.
i have turn myself into someone who doesn't care about his duties and neglect his Creator.(ok, not fully).
i have bowed to people's judgements just to satisfy their demands.
i have done a little to do something "more".

and thus, whats the meaning of my life again?.

lets the quest begins.

i will not give up to live my life as a muslim.

.many.

.of things that have happened.

.of things that could have changed the way things are now.

.of things that would have made me a better soul.

.of things that should lead me back to Him.

.i am grateful, i am blessed.

.i am in ignorance, i am confused.

.of things that should be simple and easy.

.a thought came across.

."how can i accept anyone in my life if i don't even accept myself in the first place?"

.the quest.

.of self discovery.

.wake up.

.life goes on.

.lets be a better muslim.