.the dark side.

prevailed most and illuminates the light of my heart.
at random mussolla.
i failed to recall verses of Him in solah.
even as simple as my favourite Al-Furqan's.
mostly when i was the leader.

none of hadiths are memorized for the past few months.
the nafs had too much fun.
no books of ulama' are in my grasp lately.
just fortune, the sun,malay mail and financial daily.

the heart is confused.
no usrah i can visit anymore.
only randon ta'lims and sermons.
"good" friends are also not around anymore.

every day is a struggle.
to be what a muslim should be.
the dark side shouldn't have controlled.
ya qalbi.

.nevertheless the same.

fun.
isn't defined in any specific way.

tragedy.
isn't something bad after all.

sins.
aren't the best memories for anyone including me.

idealistic.
isn't the most disastrous thing in my religion.

greed.
isn't the worst thing in the world.
it is worse than the word mentioned itself.

p/s: be ambitiously focus is better than anything else.

.unlike you.

I've stopped writing intellectual stuffs or things that i read somewhere and post it on this blog since years ago.
somehow i rather like the childish-teenager "expression" tone that this blog have.
it does represent the immature side of me.
i like.!

.occupiers of my radical mind.

her name is mina kimes.wonder who she is?please google.thank you.;)

right in your face.
i told you so.
you will get it because u deserved it.
that goes to a friend whom i predicted she is going to be a big shot corporate lad one day.
a big congratulation to diya.
now we can say that iium graduates are as good as overseas grad.
this is surely a boost for ama to be somebody too.
a song for you : "against tommorow"-khottal

for my other half.
don't get intimidated by anything else.
now u know having friends can't make u feel strong enough to be what you want to be.
it takes everything to be one.
the most important.
is urself.
sacrifices.good times.
in terms of happiness.
money.
physical energy.
emotionally.
and u always need Him to do that.
in good times and bad times.
always.
a song for you : "in every tear, He is there" - sami yusuf

for myself.
u've learnt a lot.
don't stop learning and keep growing.
revive ur dream.
insyaAllah u can make it.
you dont have enough time left.
a semester to figure out everything.
to get rid out of this place.:-)
a song for myself : "golden slumbers" : ben folds (the beatles cover)

p/s : thanks for everything to the 2nd person mentioned.;)

.astonished mind.

there are major differences between being knowledgeable and being wise.
don't you think so?

.so the history was made at down under.

so i bought a sideways long board which is not the 41" or 38" inch longboard,it is just 28.5" inch which i guess would be good enough for me.
but now,i'm out of idea of what skills can i pull out on this board besides old school skateboarding tricks.your say?

and i played skateboard at down under.
borrowed from kind and generous kids i met at mermaid beach.haha.
my cousin challenged me to show what can i do with the board.
so boldly i tried to 'heelflip' the board.and i did it on the 2nd try.
so i guess i still have the skills.hahaha.vain.
i hope so.

i will skate till my legs can't take it anymore.
enough said.

.grateful always.

the day before my last paper on last 14th april.
i decided,and khalid as well to play xbox with megat & e gang for a while.
because that night supposed to be my last night at uia.
so we went up to his room(yup,their room is above ours).
and we started playing around 10.30pm.
supposedly it ended around 1.00am(as agreed by khalid and me)
but it did not.it ended around 4am.
and yes,we have exam on e same day.
and guess what?
we didnt even cover quarter of the chapters covered in final yet we want to do something else.
but it was really worth it.
because there will be no xbox with lcd screen next sem.
going to miss those moments.
;(