.travelog #33.

hei hei.

home is a desperate end, say the lies.

but the lennon boy said the truth. 

and i bet, hei hei you are confused. 

doomed.

said the aristotle or sorcrates.

it is happening again.

and now i am taking charge.

hell yeah.

i love being an underdog again.

nevertheless, life goes on.

Alhamdulillah. 

.travelog #32.

there are times when i wish. 

i should have keep things to myself than to share it with someone that i trust. 

because of this someone who seems to have holier-than-thou attitude. 

or it could be just my perception. 

may Allah swt forgives me. 

.travelog #31.

i don't curse.
but once i do.
still not that harsh.
but sharp enough.

"sebenarnya sama setan juga penyokong PR ini"

today is the election day.
of my country.

p/s : the picture was taken during MV shooting of "undilah" song.

.travelog #30.

last friday.
i was buying few books from this islamic store.
which is my only source if i feel like buying religious books.
for me or as gifts to others.

then when i was about to pay at the counter.
the usual akhi Samer wasn't there.
the owner.
but there was a younger guy instead,
around my age.

he promptly asked me, whether i am from malaysia.
i replied yes.
then he wanted to ask a question.
i replied, "sure, go ahead".

The cashier :
"why muslims from malaysia are practicing like real muslims? better than those long beards pakistanis or arabs, what is the secret?"

I was literally stunned and speechless.
because I wasn't sure what his questions were referring to. but I replied :
"In what context brother?"

Then he pointed out an example :
"I went to furqan's for fajr's prayer and half of the jamaah were malaysians"
(furqan is one of the mosques nearby)

I took some time to think. Because I kinda have the answer but I wasn't sure. My reasoning cognition was considering many factors at one time. But somehow I think I get one of the possible reasons. Thus, I replied :
"It could be the usrah, or halaqah which keep the guys on purpose"

Then he put a big smile on his face, He replied by nodding his head :
"Yes, that really make sense, a very good point"

Conversation ended with greetings. Jzklh.

.travelog #29.

"you are such a gentleman".
coming from a stranger.
which surprised me.
may God's love be with you.

you might be homeless.
but you are still a brother of mine.

.travelog #28.

for once.
i have had everything other people would want.
a good career, even blessed with so many choices, and having so many companions around.
and nothing but a way upward.
but He decided that I wasn't ready.
thus I followed my heart to leave.
so i left to the other side of the world.

and now.
i am fighting.
and i have almost lose everything.
and have nothing for career in particular.
and wasting time healing the broken heart.

but i stand still.
because i don't want to see myself as the victim.
of anything i am struggling with at the moment.
i am a believer.
and i will keep fighting.

al balad : 4.

life goes on.
and i will die as a better muslim.
biiznillah.

.travelog #27.

at this verily moment.
i feel lost.
i feel i'm nowhere to be found.
i feel i have nothing to be proud of.
i feel so isolated.

i feel so weird.
about myself.