.under His clouds.

i want to be most cold-hearted man on earth.
pretend that the world is easy to deal with.
and in ignorance of beautiful things that living around me.
i'm sick of being in the state of not knowing whats wrong and whats right.
thus i chose the holy book and His words as my guide.
to help me through this journey of life.

i want to go far far away.
see new things.meet strangers.touches something unseen yet beautiful.
live with regrets.yet motivated.flourish the kindness throughout the universe.
and with the calmness inside the heart.
i want to feel my life under His bless.
again.like i felt it once before.
not so long ago.

perfection isnt the right answer.
because it's not a total imagition,but only a fatal distraction.
hopes and desires are not achievable.
when guts and confidence is still in puzzle.

i met her.such a perfect stranger.
with just a blink of an eye,she was more than a stranger.
but now i'm not that sure.
whether i have the time for my other half.better i leave sooner than later.

its not easy,and its not hard.
its extremely difficult and it hurts inside.

if possible,i want to die.now.
but my religion will say no.

sorry.