.travelog #18.

to feel that you want to be loved.
by a person.
while that is not actually the reason.

to feel that you already ready.
to have someone to build the family with
hurts.
when you don't have anyone in particular.

to feel that she is the one.
while you are just one of the many to her.
hurts so much.
and worst when.
she is just your imaginary one.

to feel alone.
is not a new thing.
it is the usual thingy.

but to see people raising their kids.
feel like you wanting to have them.
and teach them what are necessary to survive in this world.
and the compassions of parents.
in juggling between their many commitments.
thrills you.
in a way.

i want you.
any of you.
who accept me the way i am.
to just have values within you.
and the desire and ability to be a loving and nurturing mother.
and a kind heart.

if you are listening.
to this call.
i am waiting.

nothing good comes easy.
thus something good shall not wait.

desperation.
must be protected by His bless.