.i want to have that glimpse again.

of things that i really want.
of being someone that i really want to be.

fears.
have stopped me from running again.
they said i don't deserved anything else anymore.
the judgmental people have displayed their perfect tone.
strike me right in the heart of this weak fragile soul.

i.
rather be in a place where i have nothing to worry about.
where there is no expectation of what i wanna do.
where the body feel like giving out its very best.
and the energy wasted for no one's satisfaction.

procrastination.
of things that are meaningful to me is not a big deal.
but when it involved someone else's rights, i have to avoid it at my very best.

winning is desirable, losing is inevitable
because the world works that way.
some call it the law of nature.
while i call it a "sunnatullah".