.pain put your heart to the ground.

When the wind blows down this hard,
Many a bond is broken.
See the water lie on the ground
From where the heavens opened.

Lord, how will you get through this night
With your dreams departed?
And who alone will comfort you?
Only the broken hearted.

So you've gone beyond your means,
Every wound is open,
Your best laid plans are out of reach,
And all your fears unspoken.

Sweet revenge is spoken then;
In the twilight it is gone.
To living lies with no escape,
Lord, I would rather be alone.

I press my fingers to the wood
To tell you of my dreaming,
To sing you songs from olden times,
To keep the love light gleaming.

'Cause there's a place where we can go,
Where we will not be parted.
And who alone will enter there?
Only the broken hearted.

eric clapton - broken hearted

.rejection.

once is acceptable.
twice is hurtful enough.

this is the sunatullah :
you get hurt when u hurt others

perfection!.;p

.after years.

yeay!.



the scenery is undeniably awesome.
the gap is such a height.
the person was not ready to pull some trick just yet.
not today,maybe next week.
and the person is me.

;-)

.idle and reconcilation.

.mission outlined in review.

.things to be done before 31 December 2010.

accomplished : done
accomplished but not completed : pending
no specific action taken : idle

1.get into mandarin class.idle.
2.get into french class.idle.
3.join any professional convention or seminars.pending.
Unisel Accounting Symposium : FRS Convergence (May 2010) : done.
Uniten Accounting Conference : Forensic Auditing (October 2010) : soon.
UiTM Accounting Conference : MIA's dual year event (November 2010) : planned.
4.join advanced english class.idle.
5.complete my dreams book.idle and unnecessary.
6.hafaz few surah from qur'an and 10 hadith at least.idle.eh?
7.buy malcolm gladwell's & mitch albom's books.
malcolm's left to buy : tipping point.done.(march 2010)
mitchs's left to buy : have a little faith.(april 2010).e-book.
*additional 3 books bought.power of giving.failing forward.napoleon's summary.
8.searching for info regarding acca abroad.pending.
9.read at least new 15 books.pending.(done if include fortune's and solusi magazines)
10.create new dreams.pending.
11.experience new things & new friends.done.
12.get into formal guitar/piano class.(even it's like too late).done.
13.to reach 60 kg physically.idle.

.unintended light.

the decision made is not to be regret.

i feel better this way.
sorry.

.under His clouds.

i want to be most cold-hearted man on earth.
pretend that the world is easy to deal with.
and in ignorance of beautiful things that living around me.
i'm sick of being in the state of not knowing whats wrong and whats right.
thus i chose the holy book and His words as my guide.
to help me through this journey of life.

i want to go far far away.
see new things.meet strangers.touches something unseen yet beautiful.
live with regrets.yet motivated.flourish the kindness throughout the universe.
and with the calmness inside the heart.
i want to feel my life under His bless.
again.like i felt it once before.
not so long ago.

perfection isnt the right answer.
because it's not a total imagition,but only a fatal distraction.
hopes and desires are not achievable.
when guts and confidence is still in puzzle.

i met her.such a perfect stranger.
with just a blink of an eye,she was more than a stranger.
but now i'm not that sure.
whether i have the time for my other half.better i leave sooner than later.

its not easy,and its not hard.
its extremely difficult and it hurts inside.

if possible,i want to die.now.
but my religion will say no.

sorry.