.twist things around.

i woke up for prayer.with sadness.
i feel there's a hole inside my heart.
i try to fill in with His words.I recite the divine book.
and it cure me a little.
i put myself to bed.
and i grab my self-help book.
i read few pages and i'm done.
sorry jack canfield.
i couldnt read yours in this situation.
later will do.
so,i had some early breakfast.
and i try to make my heart feel happy.
i failed.
and last.
i take my guitar.
and sit on the bench in front of my house.
facing the morning sun.
with pathetic lovely self-written song.

"i wish things are easier.
but still i see it getting harder.
i sleep and woke up with tears.
can the beautiful morning blue sky be my cure?

sadness moment is not a tragedy.
when a stranger said ,will u take it easy?.
i smile and say,hey you are right.
let's shine my day with thousand light

and I don't want to think to much.
but loneliness made me to do so.
go and find something to be your hush.
shouldnt be anyone you looking for.

what is it?your heart inquires.
it's the food for your soul.
try your best to get close to your Creator.
to not let yourself be someone cold."

and i end it with listening to the sounds of birds.
watching beautiful sun dawn.
looking at the not so blue sky and ask myself?
why am i playing guitar this early morning?
i smile and say.
pathetic.
and get myself on the bed again.
till i woke up around 12pm.
what a thing done to waste my day.
but i feel better
=)

p/s : thanks matured-face young stranger.