.back in school.

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i would say i wasnt merely a student during my school days.i never revised anything(even for spm).i was considered as a weirdo by the school lads.i was e invisble guy in school.i did things that my friends would avoid without a thought .poetry, debating, pidato, syarahan,dikir barat & etc,and yes,i did represent my school for most of the events.won once in district level and none since.funny and humiliating,i was called putera 'smk**1' during assembly(by beloved teacher anom) since i keep getting the prizes or certificates from mr principal.but yet, i was an emotional,anti-social,stubborn and unpredictable young kid.i get annoyed by mean jokes easily.and i hate organized things.to conclude,i was an ordinary boy without much bother upon anything.and so, i cant really understand how i deserved to be called putera 'smk**1'.so,it was a little bit humiliating to be called that way.indeed,i hate books.

so when i got into form 2, i avoid myself from joining any similar competition.but somehow,i still had to join 3-4 competitions.and i lost for syarahan,a competition where my teachers would expect me to win again.for others, i failed to win anything.bu.it wasnt my thing.all i want to do is to go for skateboarding every evening,or basketball,or football.but still,i dont care much about what you or others would expect from me.so during form 3,i trained friends of mine to replace my place for syarahan and poetry things.and i even had a sajak of my own(i created those),which my friend used in district competition.;p.watever it is,i had enough of joining such things.

form 3,i played sports more than anything else.if im not mistaken,i joined 'And 1 basketball 3x3' held at usj summit during this particular year.and yeah,i still with my skateboard and sometimes,football.this year was the year where i start travelling here and there to find a skatepark or skate-able spots.i even played at danga bay skatepark which is the cool windy skatepark ever.(it was like playing at the long beach,california skatepark).i even had the chance to skate at ttc skatepark,b.b.bangi(i was still living in puchong back then).and other skateparks as well,like sunway extreme park.(and im not sure if they still have skatepark by now).eventhough i was all alone,i learned much from these experiences.

form 4 and form 5 ,nothing much, more into sports(bowling,pingpong), scout?(haha,i received the golden badge at district level but never that active in school), and facilitator thingy(thanx cikgu said).and i started to mingle with people.what a surprised change hah?,:-).and i started to expressed myself through music,various bands,known and unknown accompanied me day and night.

fact num 1 :
enough for that,by middle of 2005, there was a girl who was my bestfriend opened my eyes towards the meaning of life,dreams,purposes,hopes and since that,i suddenly changed to someone better.i hope i did.;p

fact number 2 :
this is not my whole experience,just part of it,to recall myself,of who i was,and who i am now.
the answer : ordinary boy with unsettled dreams.

fact number 3 :
and teacher anom who once called me prince of the school during assembly is the sister-in-law of my AGA's lecturer : dr n**** anum.and teacher anom told me(as we met on my raya's open house) that she told everything about me to my lecturer already(and i have more dark moments in school than the good ones).no wonder dr. n**** keep looking at me after raya's holiday break in her class,and guess what, i skipped aga class more than 3 times already by the time she told me.huhu.


p/s : eventhough i wasnt 'so call' a good student, i hate smoking,hang out at cc,coupling and etc.im glad i was naturally inclined to the good things.pfffftttt.and i still have bunches of skateboarding magazine(malaysia scene) and vcds of malaysia skateboarders,nak pinjam?

.not mine.

In this world of news,
I've found nothing new
I've found nothing pure
Maybe I'm just idealistic to assume that truth could be fact and form
That love could be a verb Maybe I'm just a little misinformed

As the dead moon rises, and the freeways sigh
Let the trains watch over the tides and the mist
Spinning circles in our skies tonight
Let the trucks roll in from Los Angeles
Maybe our stars are unanimously tired

Let your love be strong, and I don't care what goes down
Let your love be strong enough to weather through the thunder cloud
Fury and thunder clap like stealing the fire from your eyes
All of my world hanging on your love

Let the wars begin, let my strength wear thin
Let my fingers crack, let my world fall apart
Train the monkeys on my back to fight
Let it start tonight When my world explodes,
when my stars touch the ground Falling down like broken satellites
All of my world resting on your love

=)

.done and changes.may 2010.

i've posted of list of things to do for this year.unexpected, ive already done few of those.but some changes came into my mind and thus,reconcile it is a must.

num 3.
specific goal.
- join any professional convention or seminar
things done.
- i went to students accounting conference : '2wards frs convergence 2012' at unisel last april.accompanied by teha and ana and beloved dr akhyar.it was cool though.e gist of the conference is quite crucial for us(students) to know.i was pretty excited eventhough it was held on weekends.and i met this guy name thava from lim kok wing, which i accidentally met again on the next monday at ijn(i was auditing ijn back then), and he was there with his dad (sort of post-heart operation medical check up).what a small world huh?.:-)
comment.
-im still going to attend other conferences,esp those relating to my field.business,economy , accounting & etc.when will i attend the second one?.He knows best.;p

num 7.
specific goal
-buy malcolm gladwell's & mitch albom's books.
things done
-bought the last series of my malcolm's collection,the tipping point.this is malcolm's first book but for me,it is the last.
-for mitch,i bought 1 of his book,have 1 of his in softcopy,just left with 'have a little faith' i guess.:-)
comment
-eventhough im having them,it'll be never be enough.I'm thinking of buying religious book and conventional kind,i had enough with self-help book i guess?

num 9.
specific goal
searching for info regarding acca abroad.
changes & issues
i'm searching for scholarship available for acca but now(after having some thought about the info and others' opinion),i seem to opt for master rather than doing acca abroad.the main problem is finding a scholarship.jpa want only their undergraduate scholars(not other scholars) which a big blow to me and alternatively,mara seems to be a perfect fit,but not when it comes to spm,all subjects must achieve credit,i gt 4a,6b and 1 d.chemistry.how worse is that?now it is a big problem for me to find other scholarship as the sponsors for post graduate study are limited compared to acca.Ya Allah,help me.please show me the way to achieve my dreams.i hopw i will.;/
comment
if im going to do my master or acca in local institution,my current scholars will continue sponsoring me if i graduate with 3.5 and above which is not an issue insyAllah,but it seems to be least desireable than studying outside.i need to find a solution for this.;-(
p/s:
im not sure if shell still offer scholarship for those who want to do acca abroad,which require final cgpa of 3.75 above.achievable at the moment but im not sure about final year.it goin to be hard.just do my best.no pressure.be cool but determine.and join programmes inside & outside campus.whatever it is,i hope by achieving these dreams will lead me closer to Him.biiznillah;-)

to be continued

Those whom they call upon do desire (for themselves) means of access to their Lord, - even those who are nearest: they hope for His Mercy and fear His Wrath: for the Wrath of thy Lord is something to take heed of. (al-isra' :57)

believe in your dreams as mean of believing in Him.and you will get everything insyaAllah.;-)

.a song for friends.;-)

.strangers everyday,yet so close.(part one)

have you ever meet someone and within seconds you say, 'you look familiar , have we meet before or something', and later, it continues with unnecessary long 'question and answer' session.sometimes you might get lucky that you really have seen/meet them before, otherwise you don't, at the end, you have to stop the conversation or start with a new one, both ways, it would be awkward.am i right?:-)

it's something common and happens everyday,why would i bother much about it?simple as it should be, it amuses me much and i noticed how simple things can mean something meaningful out of it.it's nothing extraordinary but it implies one thing, we are not the only one who living in this world, there is always someone else, stranger!.you call them by that name at the moment, but later, you might call them with something else.friends?uncle?by name?or etc.whatever it is, let the time decides.btw,i cant say much about how the 'let the time decides' works exactly but i do have stories to make it clearer.:-)

at the moment, im still in my intership period with this audit firm which have numbers of clients located around klang valley and selangor.so far, ive been assigned job to 5 clients including client i currently auditing.the first one in sunway,which require me to drive straight from home and honestly, it was so tiring and costly(the claims didnt help much though) and hitz.fm gotcha call was my buddy every morning.nothing much about the first job as it was the worst job ive ever assigned.second one is interesting.located in the heart of kl,jalan raja chulan.i drove to bandar tasik selatan,took star lrt to hang tuah, and monorail to raja chulan.and walked quite a distance to the office.so how do the journeys relate to the story?

as i parked at the bandar tasik selatan(bts) car park,there will always be 4 indian guy there, one would take my money and give me the ticket, another one would return the balance(if any) and the remaining two 'cool' dudes(they were so damn nice to me) would be at large car park assisting the customers to park their car and as i was one of them, they assisted me for the first few days.nothing much about it but guess what, on the next day, the 4 dudes already recognized my car very well eventhough they were 150++ other customers everyday in that car park, but still, they knew me by the second day.sometimes, when i get off the car, one of them would shouted at me in nice way 'abang,apa khabar',and yup,they cheered my morning.:p.

i'm an observant(as agreed by imran to not call ourselves stalker but an observant.hehe),which also means im not in ignorance most of the time upon things or people around us, so by observing the way they noticed me, my heart started to noticing them as well.;)

hey friends, i might dont recognized them that much,but for some reasons, i do believe if i meet them one day in random shopping mall,at random streets, i would say, i've met this indian guys somewhere,they look so familiar,but where and when?.i could spend hours thinking about it.strangers?they are.but yet so close to me.;-)

to be continued

p/s : car park's dudes are cool huh?wait for star lrt's buddies and ladies.and the monorail's professionals.;-)

.capitalist.

i recall a discussion between panelist from penang based developer's representative@panelist and BFM deejay on friday morning(otw to IJN@creepy lovely client).

the developer : penang based company.
the panelist : annoying capitalist
the bfm deejay : moderate idealist & realist

they started with the intro and company development and later they went further into specific discussion which touches upon their recent project in penang.

dj : regards to your recent project in penang, u are expecting to deal with squatters that have been there for years, what will you do upon that situation?

panelist : oh true, we are expecting to deal with that, but we do believe we don't have any problem with them as we have enough experience in dealing with squatters.that is not even our concern at the moment.as usual, they will ally with NGO and politicians but that will not change anything as we know how to play the game and the result will be a win-win situation.and bla3...
(with her annoying tone ever)


and the discussion went on....

my naive thought : there is nothing wrong with her answer, its a typical answer you would expect from any developing company, but the tone of arrogance? it makes an ugly capitalist seems uglier.ppppfffttt.

p/s : not emotional.just being rational.

.sub-mission accomplished.

malcom's done.complete 4 series.huhu.
so 12 books left to buy for 2010.
oh yeah.;)

p/s :i'm enjoying it.:p