.once not so in a blue moon.

the best part of this week was.
i had weird and strange dreams almost everyday.
this morning,the dream that got me wake up.
was the weirdest one ever.

the situation :
i was on my way to my class and suddenly there was this lady who approached me bluntly and introduced herself as reporter from a media tv and ask me this question.

the personel involved :
unknown reporter - UR
me myself - AFA

UR : i would like to interview you regards to the current government development project.(i heard she was mumbling something about felda koridor tengah.apa tu?)

AFA :(what is this?!!),erm, you really want my opinion?.(with blurry face)

UR : yar,if you have something in your mind.(does he know anything about it?)

(hurm, i have things to say about this)

AFA : i have my personal view on this, do you really want to interview me?

UR : yurp.before we discuss about that,try to comment on this one.what do you think of 'konsep persamaan'?

(i spent few minutes to absorb the question.'konsep persamaan'?maybe in allocation of national resources kot?why she used malay term?i guess it must be the 'equality concept')

(and the thoughts and conceptual example with nelson mandela's concept of distributive justice, maqasid al-syariah and etc keep coming in my head,so i begin my answer with...)

AFA : If you're referring to the equality concept,this can be explained through.....

i woke up before i finished explaining my view on that but what was that?
a critical question to be answered in a dream?
phheeeuuuhh.

.funny.funny.funny.

you can't wait to feel positive to move forward.
act your way into feeling good.
that's the only way to start thinking more positively about yourself.
understand?.

p/s : yusuf islam datang uiam?pheuh.:)

.life is not all about achievements.

i'm not such a good guy.
i have my own flaws.
among them :

i love war.
between bad guys and good guys.
it is something herm.
thrilling?exciting?.

weird.

p/s : goodluck north korea.:)

.i like her.

hana fi qalbi.
it is not something new.
but it is something different.
she is unique.
she is one of a kind.

:)

p/s : check out snsd new single.hehe.;)

.doomed.

i feel like I'm nothing.
i have nothing.
i know nothing.
and this is so frustrating.

while i see u.
as something.
have everything.
need nothing.

i don't know what i want to be.
auditor?.fund manager?.lecturer?.
business consultant?.marketeer?.a banker?.

what I'm sure of is i want to keep getting better.
achieve more than what i have.
help others.
getting closer to Him.
in any way i can.

do i need them to be in perfection?.
you think?.

perfection is an illustration of world of hopes without fears.
sadly the real world deals with both.
obviously my words doesn't fit with the real world's demand.
hence,i can't do much about that.
i just need to redefine what is the real perfection again.
and again.

so where is this going?.
i have no idea.
i don't even know where this is coming from.
;/

.failures.i don't really like being stupid.

we are human.
we like to know things.
if we are not sure about something.
we search for the answer.
we google 'em.
we ask people around.
we read magazines.
we listen to others.
we observe the surrounding.
we try to perceive anything that can be relate to them.
yet.
we failed.

i'm getting used to failures.
no problem with that.
but i don't like being stupid.
not at all.

this is not going to stop me from reading and knowing things.

we hate you lousy education system.!
your artificial merits is the one that allow irresponsible people lead the country.!

;/

.someone new.

i just figured out this lady today.
but her videos on youtube has been posted since 2006.
i'm so outdated.;(

btw,shes good.quite good i would say.:)

introducing : nerina pallot



p/s : ai ai.;)